To my one and only daughter.

Hey sunshine.... You just turned twelve, officially a pre-teen, growing so fast.  I am so proud of the young women you have become. I love your unique style and your independence.  The fact that you already  do not really care what other people think about you is amazing for someone so young. I am so proud of myself for instilling this quality in you. I feel like I have done my job raising you. ... Times are about to get tough with all the hormones raging through  your body, just know that I completely understand.  I know that this is going to sound weird but I always yelled and was really loud because I never ever wanted you to cower in the face of adversity. Never back down, always stand up for the people who are unable to do it themselves. The joy and reward you will get from this is unfathomable. You can do anything you put your mind too. I never want you to have to be stuck in a relationship that you can't get out of.
 High school is going to suck ass.  Don't get involved with anyone click, just bounce around to all of them. You will have one or two teachers that will impact your life greatly, keep in touch with them and I guarantee it will be worth it.
Buggie, you are a mini me ,it is going to be your job to hold this family together. Every family needs a matriarch and it is you. Keep your older brothers in line and watch over Jacob he is going to need you.
 I want you to know that you were created out of love, the firework kind. Butterflies in your belly kind of love. I still have them for dad after all these years. I do not ever plan on leaving your dad but in case it happens I want you to know that.
The light shining from your inner self lights up a room every time you walk in.  You have brought me nothing but joy and so many laughs. Everything that is good in dad and I has been passed down to you.
 I have to admit I am a little scared because I do not want you to distance yourself from us now that you are entering your teenage years. It scares the fuck out of me.  I am so sorry that I have been sick most of your whole life and I am sorry that I could not always bring you to the places that you needed to go.  I think that me being sick has shown you how to be compassionate, caring and to always take care of people when they are at there worse.   I can't wait to continue to watch you grow. I love you buggie!!!!! Love always Mom