Happy Birthday Jacob

Happy Birthday!  We could not get a hold of you on your birthday. I think it broke Lyll's heart. I know that if I tried harder I could have got in touch with you,m I was just miserable from my surgery but that is no excuse. I did not want to over step my bounds but when I have I ever let anyone ever stop me from doing anything.  I can not believe that you are fucking twenty years old, Holy shit I kept you alive all this time.. I am having a difficult time writing all this shit because of my spine. I think something is crunching me cuz I am having difficulties reading and writing.

How are you, we miss you so much. Your sister the most . it has really been  bothering her. I just want to know if you want me to be in your life I will fight a little harder than what i have been  I love you so much dolphin boy, Gonna save this is a finish later after dad leaves. Love you and so proud of you!